spoiled by riches? no thanks (unless it's the lottery)

I believe that, in life, to find happiness, you have to look within. To look outward is to be disappointed. You see all the things other people have. You become upset of all the things they have, when you have... less. I often look to myself to find happiness and it has worked pretty well for me so far. To call me spoiled will be taken with the utmost defense.

But life has dangled fruits in my face and it drives me mad that other people can be so... spoiled. Sure, I don't have to care for those people. I can just think about myself and the things I got on my own. The clothes I paid for. The food I paid for. The coupons I clipped. The pampering I learned to hate for their expensive, worthless nature. I've always tried to look in myself for happiness and count my blessings. The life I created for myself is a blessing. It has made me the person that I am, and I consider myself good and blessed. But the spoiled are still spoiled.

I don't care that other people are more fortunate than I am because I am more fortunate than some other people. Sure, it would be nice to win the lottery and live a generous and carefree life. I often get caught in those fantasies and then afterwards, I would go into work and flip everyone off. Then I can swearing and start throwing slang all over the place. Possibly moonwalk out of there.. but it's such a long walk out of there...

Happiness is from within. I try my best not to compare my life with others because everyone is different; everyone has their own problems that they deal with no matter how perfect their lives seem to the outside. I would be a terrible person if I made my life a tragedy. I would be in a really dark place.

So I look on the bright side. I look to the brighter side of things. I look to all the things that make me happy. Life is to live. Do I really want my CPA? What status do I even want? Why should my career define me? I love my life to enjoy all aspects of my life. Accounting is not my passion. I'd rather be doing other hobbies. I don't need to make that much money. I'm a humble girl. I can get by living a modest life.

Life is worth as much as you make it out to be. If you live in sadness, then you have a sad life. If you live in greed, then you have a greedy life. If you live in happiness, then you have a happy life. Simple enough, right? Right?