Handsome Stranger

I never thought about my type
And allowing my heart to lead the way
But the second I saw you standing there
I knew you were the one to stay

I haven't seen you around
Maybe our paths were just that distant
Perhaps we met upon a dream
And you came into my life that instant

This handsome and kind six-foot stranger
Oh, how my heart did go insane
Without a word, I lost all rationale
And just a foolish girl remains

He Who I Desire

I'm slowly, but surely, trying my best to become a more desirable person. Seeing him makes me want to obtain it even more. On my bus ride to work, I saw this tall guy. He didn't get on the bus because he saw that the Limited Q65 was right behind. He signaled my bus driver that he won't be getting on.. That, to me, shows that he cared enough to acknowledge that my driver would have stopped for him. He was super tall and extremely good looking.

On the bus ride home, he got on the same bus as me. Fate? I would have loved to think so, but doubt it. He was extremely tall. He wasn't as good looking as I thought he was, but nevertheless, he was so handsome in my eyes. He had a Blackberry. I think I saw a picture of a small dog on it. Great, the only reason for having such a small dog is because it was a dog he bought for his girlfriend. I couldn't possibly expect this guy to be single. There was this one girl who was about to get off the bus, but her bag strap was caught on something and she couldn't get it out. He went and pushed the door open so that the driver wouldn't leave without her getting off. I like that he didn't invade her space by trying to help her with the strap. He was more logical and righteous. What more can you ask for?

I never really know the type of guy I want. I've always had a floating taste in guys, letting my heart judge who it wants for it. Ahh, he's the kind of guy I want. If I were to want someone like him, I have to be someone worthy of getting someone like that. I have to work on myself. Now that I know who I want, it's up to my willpower to get it for me.

There was this guy who was sitting across from me on the bus who was kind of creepy. I think he was making eyes at me. I couldn't tell for sure because the light was reflecting on his glasses.. but it was really creepy that he would look at me and keep staring even when he saw me look at him..

These things that happen..

Who am I to judge anyone? Who am I not to give some people a chance? Who am I to refuse?

Well, everyone has a choice in who they want. Regardless of who you are and how you look, there's no reason for anyone to settle. I know the type I want. I know it well now. I will not settle for anyone less than someone that can shock my heart into awesomeness.

I Like Him

I think it's a little off-putting that I like this guy so much. A part of me want to meet him and go to a museum. Another part of me is scared that if I did meet him, he wouldn't meet up to my expectations. The fact that this could possibly be all in my head frightens me.. One minute, I'm happy thinking about him and what we could be. Another minute, I'm hating myself for liking someone who doesn't even care for me the same way. Why am I wasting my time? Why...

[Hey,

I had a dream about you the other day.. It was so weird. We were in my aunt's bedroom, which was also an office. We would steal glances at each other, but never at the same time because it was too unnerving. There was a point when I tried avoiding going near you by making my own pathway behind the head of the bed. It was so weird. Then finally, I looked at you and waved. You smiled and waved back. How did you know I like crooked smiles?]

I'm trying my best this summer to lose weight. I think 25 years of being self-conscious is enough.. If I become this beautiful girl.. I might still want my nerdy guy who can't even finish a single beer in his lifetime. But then again, who am I to say that he wants me?