I Found It in Jersey

Still single.. but hopefully not for long..

After the whole shirt thing with Japan, I felt like he's been distancing himself from me. At one point, I told him a hilarious, racy joke and he ignored me for a week. And I called him out on it. Then he ignored me for another week. Thinking that was the end of our online talks, I went back on to skout for male companionship. Japan shocked and kind of broke my heart when he ignored me. We've been talking for so long that he was someone I considered consistent in my life. He wasn't like Chicago bc Japan was closer. Even if I didn't think much of him in a romantic way, it was heartbreaking that he could stop talking to me like that.

And so I went back on skout. I went through my old messages and noticed this one guy that I've always seen on there. I didn't even realize he messaged me so I messaged him back. And that's when I started liking him. I liked that he got my jokes and played along with them. I liked that he remembers the things I tell him. I like that he's confident and funny. I like that we're different, but get along. It's been over a month of talking. He certainly is a smooth talker. We've established that we are just about opposites. But I like him nonetheless. And I met him for a brief moment the day after Christmas. I brought him some of my lemon cookies. We hugged hello and we hugged goodbye. I remember his face being ever so soft. I liked his voice.. Upon meeting him.. I wasn't sure if I liked him.. But the more I thought about it.. the more I seemed to like him and missed talking to him. We even texted for a whole 8 hours one night! And he won his first final fantasy football league :). He called me his lucky charm :).

He calls me Rikers. He seems awesome... I hope he's not going to be another Chris.. I fear that the most... That I might fall for someone really fast and fall out of it just as fast. Whoever Jersey is.. I really want to get to know him... <3>