"I Have Suffered Enough"

So I was listening to one of the Dharma talks by Sharon Salzberg and the one thing that drew my attention as I was listening to it on my subway ride home was the words "I have suffered enough".

I remembered having a conversation with Kathy about suffering and how I felt that some people liked to suffer. I don't mean people welcome suffering into their lives any chance they get, but I do feel that some people are drawn toward it.. maybe because of the pity or sympathy that other people would feel for them. Another thing that stood out from the podcast was the question of why people love humans? It's because we feel compassion for one other. And maybe that's what we all hunger for. Attention. Just someone to care about us, whether it's love or pity. Some feeling is better than no feeling at all.

Well, not to sound cold or anything that would make me look like I've never loved a day in my life but look at the facts. If someone/something is making you suffer, then wouldn't you try all you can to avoid it? What does it say about you if you always go back to the suffering just for a moment of pleasure that you know will push you back 2 steps? Do you not consider those people the type that subconsciously love to suffer?

Call it tough love because I'm going to use this as a wake up call to all the weaklings that doubt themselves because of the ill-treatment that molded their minds into thinking that way. If you are in the receiving end of the verbal rampage, then I hope you see that behind all the vulgarity that it was said because of love and I do want you to be happy..

Dear You,

Applying the same logic: 'if you work hard for something, then you will eventually get it', then you deserve to suffer. You've suffered for so long and you've dedicated all this time crying over someone that doesn't deserve all this attention in the first place, or at least not for this long. Yet, still you dedicate yourself to suffering. You should suffer. I mean, you worked so hard for it so it's yours. You should just dedicate a good days' work of time to just sit and suffer. Suffer everyday for the rest of your life because that's exactly what you want, right? Make it your daily routine. It's something you worked hard for, so you deserve it. Lay under your covers and cry your heart out because you suffered for so long.. it's yours for the taking now. Just suffer. You. Deserve. It.

What do you have to say to that, huh?

WRONG!!! You're supposed to say 'stupid bitch, I have suffered enough!'

Exactly, you have suffered enough. Stop with it already. Acknowledge the suffering and what caused it. Then, let it go and move on. It's not helping your sanity by holding on to it for so long.

Once something had become a chore, you just don't want to do it anymore. Same with suffering.. If you tell someone to dedicate a time for suffering, much like school, then people are less likely to do so because they know they don't deserve it.

Realize that it's not the end of the world. Realize that it's just one person. If I were to tell you that there is one person who can affect you so badly, would you not try to rebel against it? Everything is mental. Learn to control it. Or else, you're just helpless and you'll just suffer.. At this point, I've given up and I will no longer console someone that can not be consoled. My last straw will be if you don't heed my words..

Live. Love. Learn.
And Move On.