We often hear that no man is an island. Well, on this island, I doubt anyone would even come near it. You would think there were sirens surrounding my lonely island. Shall I explain why? I am 23 year old virgin living in New York. Carrie Bradshaw, I am not. How's that life going? Not too well. Never kissed, never dated, never nothing! Being a virgin can be tough sometimes, especially at this age where no guy wants to settle down. All they wanna do is play, play, play. That's all they care about! How will I meet someone? Where? What will they think when I suddenly blurt out that I'm a virgin? I can just imagine how it's gonna go down... Reminisce: the situation You: Hey, do you want go to the museum with me, and then go grab something to eat? Me: Like on a date? You: Yeah. I like you. Me: Thanks, but you should know something before we go any further. I don't want to waste your time or mine if this is going to be an issue for you. The whole sex before marriage thing.. ain't gonna happen... soo..yeah. You: Whoa, whoa, whoa. I like you, but not THAT much! Me: Ok, laters. You: Sayonara, prude. I believe that guys take you out because they're investing for a high return. I'm more of a long term investment. I'm someone you can bring home to mom. Or be one of those people who you can fake date to show your mom a nice girl, whilst you date the chick you met on prison chat or something. Abstinence is pretty dead right now. So for me to expect to find a handsome, chivalrous guy that is completely and utterly pure and untouched is pretty impossible. And if I do find a person like that, more often than not, the guy is abstaining because of religious reasons. I'm Buddhist. A nonreligious one at that. If religion drove them to practice celibacy, how will I convince them to marry outside their religion? Very unlikely. My reasons for abstinence are pretty simple. Whether it's reasonable is another thing. 1. One obvious reason is to prevent pregnancy. I don't want to get pregnant and have it ruin my future plans. I want to go places and do stuff before I am tied down. I want to lose weight and keep it off for a few years before I ruin my body again! I don't believe in abortion unless rape was involved. Yeah, condoms are 99.9 percent effective and birth control makes it even safer to have sex, but I ain't gonna risk it. My parents would probably disown me if I were to get pregnant. My mom and grandmother both had their first child at 23. But that was back when marrying young was the thing to do. I want a career first, be settled, and be in love and with The One. I don't want to risk my future for something that was unplanned. I'm too young for the responsibility. 2. The second is simple. If a guy is willing you wait years for you to be ready to be intimate, then they really love you. They're not driven by their ding dongs. They are serious and committed to you. If they're willing to wait that long, then they are more likely to not cheat on you after being married. They show a faithful quality that I want in a man. Guys are always driven by sex. They think about it often. Very often. Masturbation on a daily basis is actually normal AND doctor recommended. How so? Well, if you don't ejaculate, your old sperm will cause a build up of bacteria. Soooo those who ejaculate often lessen their chances of getting colon cancer. Speaking of colon cancer.. here's a fun joke: "You can't get colon cancer with a semicolon!" Lol. Loves it. Of course guys my age think about sex. As much as I hate to think every guy I meet has sex on his brain, it's pretty much true. And to wonder whether my nerdy guy friends ever think of me any certain way repulses me. Bleh. How will I find love at this age? Guys play at this age. They're not looking for anything serious. How do I convince them that I'm a good enough catch to invest their futures with? How do I make myself stand out when I'm naturally a blender inner? How is a good guy to find me when I hide myself so well? My shy qualities are what do me in. They can be misinterpreted for being disinterested. I'm just scared of getting rejected. It's not easy falling in love. It's not easy to let people in. I hope someone is out there waiting for me. My shyness is what hides me from the world. It takes a man to seek me out. If I'm lucky, he'll find me. Highlight of the day: At work. (looking at pictures) Me: Oh, who is that? Boss: He's a volunteer. He's cute. Me: He IS cute. You know who else is cute? Whopper Jr (this guy names James who came to fix our computers.) Boss: lol. Me: Yeah, he has this cross-eyed thing going on. It's pretty sexy. Boss: lol. Me: lol. He WAS cute, though.
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