Me and Him

Me: "Since I don’t go out a lot, I’d like to make the best of my time if I do. If that means getting drunk so I’m in a happier state, then so be it! Pre-drunk me is more likely to not talk to anyone. Drunk me would talk to anyone who wants to conversate. I cannot socialize with strangers sober. I don’t know what to talk about. I think if we ever conversated in real life, it’ll last for 5 minutes. The good thing about messages is that you can sit and think about what to talk about, whereas, in real life, socializing doesn’t come naturally if you don’t know what to talk about."

Him: "I completely agree with you on the messages thing. Especially since we're writing essays to each other, not little one-line responses. Why do you think it takes me so long to respond? I absolutely value the opportunity to think about what you're going to say before saying it."

[ "absolutely value.." Do you know how excited I was when I read this? Maybe I'm reading too much into this, but the fact that he thinks about me and what I might write next is a bit.. overwhelmingly awesome. He's going to be my inspiration for losing weight. When I lose enough weight in the summer, I'm going to ask him out on one date. If it works out, then great. If it doesn't, we will never talk about it again. I'm afraid.. What if he's not interested? What if the picture I painted of him becomes distorted? What if there was no chemistry? What if he thinks I'm a bimbo? What if we have absolutely nothing to talk about? I am afraid.]

Me: "Of the little hours I have free during the workweek, I like to write bits and pieces of my responses to you. So you think about what I’m going to say? Ha. Are you right most of the time because I’d like to think my thoughts are original and unpredictable. I don’t usually think about what you’re going to write. I just know I look forward to it."